Michael Phelps Graces Sports Illustrated Cover: “I Was In a Really Dark Place”

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Michael Phelps gives his most candid interview in his long career for the new issue of Sports Illustrated, talking about the demons that plagued him during his brief time away from the pool that ultimately led to a DUI arrest in 2014.

The article by Tim Layden offers some insight into the day Phelps was arrested for driving under the influence of alcohol on Sept. 30, 2014, talking with Phelps’ family and close friends.

“Honestly, I thought the way he was going, he was going to kill himself,” Phelps’ longtime coach Bob Bowman said in the article. “Not take his own life, but something like the DUI.”

Layden writes of Phelps feeling shattered after the DUI, not leaving his Baltimore home for four days.

“I was in a really dark place,” Phelps said. “Not wanting to be alive anymore.”

That led to a 45-day stint in rehab in Arizona, which Phelps said made him “the most afraid I’ve ever felt in my life.”

Things turned around for Phelps after that. He got back into training last fall, despite withdrawing from the world championship team. He proposed to longtime girlfriend Nicole Johnson, and began to show signs of a rejuvenated Phelps.

Layden’s article, presented in an abbreviated version in the print edition of Sports Illustrated but available in full online, takes readers back to Phelps’ life after he won eight gold medals at the Beijing Olympics. Phelps was undisciplined after that hefty week in China, unwilling to continue the training needed to stay at a top level. Alcohol and gambling entered his life. He finished fourth in the 400 IM at the London Olympics but still managed to become the winningest Olympian of all time with 22 gold medals over three Games.

The article also details Phelps’ transformation during his time in rehab late last year, when he “wound up uncovering a lot of things about myself that I probably knew, but I didn’t want to approach.”

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Clara Bella
8 years ago

Getting old

Terry Carlsen
8 years ago

saf

Coleen Gabhart
8 years ago

He’s starting to look like Abraham Lincoln!

Brady Martin
8 years ago
Reply to  Coleen Gabhart

He looks like Nick Endris

Nick Endris
8 years ago
Reply to  Coleen Gabhart

Can tell if that’s a complement cause it’s Michael Phelps or an insult cause he looks like crap in that picture

Mercedes Figueroa
8 years ago

Jose Alberto Cano Mayte Cano

Wyatt Fate
8 years ago

Good lord he’s getting old

Mar Herr
8 years ago

I just see the best swimmer ever.

Sophia Chang
8 years ago

Olivia Jackson

Katie McNerney
8 years ago

Still one of the best athletes on the planet and to speak up about his struggles makes him that much better!

Robert Lucas
8 years ago

I’ve been there !?!

Ludmila Soroosh
8 years ago

Immediate grooming required. ..

Dana Covington
8 years ago

So so happy for Michael that he figured it out!

Angi Bartley
8 years ago

The psychology behind what happens when supreme athletes reach their goals? Where do you go when up is gone? How do you deal with it?

Junaid Arif
8 years ago

Where d0 i get his books …??

Nicholas Null
8 years ago

Wes Kochheiser

Tom Cooney
8 years ago

Swimming is grueling, repetitive … Takes place in an element we can’t breathe in … it takes lots of work and people to keep it fun … Teammates especially … Hats off to swimmers everywhere …

Nancy Hogshead-Makar
8 years ago

I am completely empathetic at the difficulty in making a transition from elite-athlete to success in the professional world. 1) an expectation that the athlete will be as successful in the new endeavor as they were in athletics. Lightning should strike twice. 2) the elite athlete is in a time-deficit in the new endeavor, as compared with peers. It takes humility. 3) Finding another endeavor that is worth putting your whole Self into. It was hard for me to find a new endeavor that was worth that level of commitment; the sacrifices necessary.
Phelp’s struggles are amplified, but not unique. I feel for him, but it is doable. Go Michael!

Garry Mcmullan
8 years ago

He wasn’t in Methil was he…?

Bill Reetz
8 years ago

Heard you were doing some rehab? Heal quickly!! Love.
UBill & Sandy

Amy Carroll
8 years ago

Wow. Interested to read.

Shannon McCabe
8 years ago

I’m glad he’s got some insight as to why he developed a drinking problem, and I sincerely hope he can use that insight to stay sober throughout his life. Even after the competitive years are over for him, he has a lot to contribute to the world, and I really would like to see him do it.

Sheryl Lavender
8 years ago

Hate to say it but such an ugly photo but such a meaningful cover. Thanks!

Bill Bell
Bill Bell
8 years ago

Nancy Hogshead’s a greet example of an Olympic (co) gold-medalist 30-plus years ago who has become a prominent professional in an entirely different field, i.e., an attorney specializing I believe in gender equity issues, among other areas. she also opted to swim collegiately at a rather lis- key program (Duke) when she could have easily written her ticket to any major program in the country.

As forbthe GOAT, all he did last summer in San Antonio wasn’t swim the fastest 100-200 flys/ 200 IM since he set the world- record in the former two @ the Rome World Championships six years ago and swam the second- fastest 200 IM all- time too.
Were I a betting man (which of course I’m not’) I mite be tempted to visit Sin City and wager a few “Bob” on him to win that trio plus perhaps the 200 free @ a certain ” minor” meet in some obscure South Anerican nation next summer. No names need be mentioned of course.

Ryan Evernden
8 years ago

check out the beard

Yuly Northcutt
8 years ago

Learn from your mistakes and move on. Lesson learned know an realize that you will choose not to be in that same dark place again.

Erin Roscetti
8 years ago

He is, simply put, an amazing and inspiring athlete

Brian Cameron
8 years ago

Keep up the good work Michael.

Bill V.
Bill V.
8 years ago

Best swimmer ever & utterly unprepared for life as an adult. Here is where the swimming community needs to start discerning between being fast in the pool and being a role model.

Nicolas Charalambous
8 years ago

Ariel Braathen

Rozane Garrow
8 years ago

Go Michael ! Best swimmer ever

Carolyn Yeager
Carolyn Yeager
8 years ago

The secret to true happiness is in giving at least equally to receiving, something Phelps has never done. Every USA swimmer knows that, unlike most Olympians, Phelps was never gracious to them. Until he learns to be humble and kind, he will not be happy.

Gordon Heck
8 years ago

The most touching part of the story is when he talked about his friend Donnie, Donnie who loved bowling and was taken before his time like so many good men on Hill 34.

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